Being a writer is something I thought would be easy. I constantly tell myself "You'll write this time, you'll write this time," but "this time," never happens and I go months without writing anything. My wife is constantly telling me that in order to get where I want to go, I need to write all the time. Sounds easy coming from her and although she motivates me to want to get to a computer and put my thoughts into words, I procrastinate very much. I do find writing to be relaxing and stress relieving, much like letting all those bottled up thoughts out into air for society to enjoy. Here goes another chapter in my life that needs to be expressed. This post isn't for sports or a sports topic, it's for me to get out that necessary pressure that I have stored up.
Life has been well for me, but like any other person who is bored, I want something else, something new and refreshing to wake up to every morning. I do not have that now, but I do love the people I work with and enjoy expressing ideas and creativeness. (I apologize if any of this is "improper" grammar, but I need to get my mind used to writing)The financial industry is very stressful, but every once in a while I get a customer that is of great interest. For example, he likes to share his thoughts about his wife who is deceased, his projects that he is working on at home, (he's a carpenter) and how life was in education. He definitely is one of my favorite customers and I enjoy every time he graces me with his presence. Then you'll get an arrogant person who believes that they make all the money in the world and if I don't refund a fee, they'll take their business elsewhere. I get it, you're upset because banking used to be free, but guess what? People cheated the system so the government had to regulate to make sure checks and balances are in place so people can't cheat. Regardless if you take your business elsewhere, you'll get the same, if not worse, treatment. We are all adults, or at least act like we are, so as adults, we should hold each other responsible for our own actions and not blame others like your bank. You as a customer choose to over spend or miscalculate money you thought you had in your account, so guess what, you got a fee for that. It's the same thing you tell your children, you have to learn from your mistake and suffer the consequence. If there are no consequences, then life is going to be super easy, but it is not.
Enough bickering, I just needed to express that. Now, I am in search of a new career, but have had no luck obtaining it. Like I said, I enjoy the financial industry, it has it's perks, but it does not pay enough and the hours can be ridiculous (I know I am there for 9 maybe 10 hours a day, but am only getting paid for 8) and customers issues can also be ridiculous. The people I work with are interesting, fun and each add a unique aspect to the business. They are what make me want to get up every morning and go to work. They tell some of the best stories, and are truly a family when it comes to their connection. Maybe if I would have been at this location in the beginning, I would find my line of work much interesting. It is definitely going to be tough leaving them.
I've started my search for a new career in the field of education, a few of my college friends are in education, my wife is in education etc. I do find teaching interesting, but I don't want summer vacation to be the only reason why I teach. I lack passion, desire and focus right now. I want instant gratification, but I know it will not happen. Why do I feel like working towards something is so difficult? Why am I in this funk and cannot get out? Maybe if I keep a constant focus on writing, it will lead to more productivity. I wanted to be a journalist for some reason; I want to explore, uncover, teach and be a story-teller. I want to have meaning in my career again. So here it goes, again, I will become a more productive writer and find the time to let my thoughts flow into this keyboard.
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